Let’s be real. This is what got me here. Things haven’t gone as planned in my life. I have wondered at times if God has forgotten me or if I did something incredibly and grievously wrong. I could have abandoned everything in those moments. I could have said I’m done and walked away.
But I didn’t. I refuse to let the enemy win. Then or now. Let me tell you. The enemy doesn’t want me writing this series. He doesn’t want me to work through my issues. He wants to keep me in captivity. He wants to make me doubt God and live based on lies so he can keep me ineffective for the kingdom and the gospel.
I feel like death tonight. I woke up with some type of bug this morning, and I can barely think straight much less crank out a meaningful, well done blog post. Put on your spiritual armor. Prepare for battle. The enemy is not resting. He is always scheming and always looking to sabotage. I don’t have the brain capacity to post the original post I had for today, but maybe we all need a reminder that God reigns in all situations. The enemy has no place here.
It may be my fever talking, but I am committed to this process. I am here for whatever God wants to teach me through this series. Do I hope that God uses this series to encourage, challenge or radically alter someone else in their walk with Him? Yes, of course. But is my ultimate purpose to document and process the goodness, kindness, and faithfulness of God in a difficult season? A hundred times yes.
So I didn’t plan to be sick today. And I didn’t plan to lose a day of debunking lies and speaking truth of God’s character. But I have a renewed passion for it as of today. It is my privilege to work out my faith according to HIs word.
“Dear friends, you always followed my instructions when I was with you. And now that I am away, it is even more important. Work hard to show the results of your salvation, obeying God with deep reverence and fear.”
I want to obey God with deep reverence and fear. I get one life. And I want it to glorify Him no matter what comes my way. Nothing is going to stop me. Not even this random sickness.
Okay, I am going to take meds and go back to sleep now.
Be encouraged. God is our strength and our portion. He will sustain us. He will carry us through our darkest hour. He will equip us to fight the battle.
♥︎Jenna
This blog post is a part of a series called Rediscovering God for the Write31Days challenge to write every day in October. You can find links to all posts in my series here. If you want to know more about the Write31Days challenge, you can find out more at www.write31days.com.